A Conquistador's Game Plan

Met him today
Cutie was my first thought
Don't have time to get into this was my second
Been burned before, not again...my third
No words between us
I was cold
Still bitter from another
Eventually we shared words
He's got flaws...my fourth
he's simple...in a good way my fifth
Sincerity oozed from his every pore
Genuine generosity as well
We talk sometimes
Take walks, eat together, occasionally
Has another interest though
Only she doesn't find him interesting
For some strange reason I do
Her eyes wander, mine don't
Our meetings become more frequent
I steal his innocence, but leave the halo
He will be my angel
Already I've stolen his interest from her
He's mine...almost
One more thing though
I must conquer his heart

Mrs. Pain (part 2)

Four weeks straight
Nothing but tears
Waiting by the phone
He never called
When we did talk
We fought
A little more of me would die
With each tear, harsh word, & cold glare
Drunk with insomnia
No sobriety in sight
A ball of tightly wound emotions
That's me
Add a timer & a fuse
I might explode
Gotten good at pretending
Yea everything is fine
At closer examination I'm everything but that
You admitted you were soul mates
I felt the same
Didn't have the heart to say it
Yet you still wont come back

Years, months, weeks, days, minutes, seconds

Time's been passing
Where are you?
What are you doing?
Remembering you
sends chills to my secret places
The thought of you with someone else
Invades my mental space
Four year old questions still linger
If I say "I miss us"
You say "Stop being childish"
Have you missed me? or even cared?
Yet I still think of you
When all other thoughts leave
You show up
My emptiness still remains
Along with the frayed remnants of a broken heart
I get no compassion from you
Playing a one sided game with myself
The pain makes me want you more
Miss you, even need you more
In my own hell going out of my mind
Wanted the next years, months, weeks, days, minutes, and seconds with you is all

CD

I broke the CD he gave me
Not on purpose you see
Did it accidentally
Thick it was by Tweet
Cried for hours
Guess that means I love him
More like in love with him
300 miles away
he felt my sadness that day
The phone rings
"Whats wrong?" Mr. Deep Voice asks
He feels me or so I want to think
Two weeks later
300 mile drive home
His truck is gone
Nobodies home
CD lies on m pillow
Identical to its broken twin
Little note in Mr. Deep Voice's handwriting reads
'Dont worry I got you.'
Affirmation meets confirmation
He loves me too

Pitiful begging

Plants need water
Animals need food
The moon needs the sun
People need air
I need you
My existence depends on it
So much so that
I don't remember life before you
Or your love
Please say you'll come back
Before its too late for me

A Lack of Communication

Is it you or me?
Maybe its us
One word answers
never a complete truth
Why not open up?
Is it easier to leave it in that bottle?
Your emotions sealed up
Like soda in a can
Do it for us
Let it go
Relieve the pressure
We need to talk
I need your thoughts
Like I need to breathe
Want to know the inner workings of  you
Want to explore your mind
How can I convince you?
Without alienating you?

Untitled

Slow down
I know baby
It feels good to me too
We have to calm down
Need this to last forever
If the music stops
Dont you do the same
Once aint enough for me
Love me more
What do you want...& need
Tongue, lips, walls, its all...
Yours
I'm just taking advantage
Never for granted
Of the time we have
That we cant get back
You got me in a daze
This maze appears to be a haze
I dont want to find the exit
I wish to remain engulfed
Trapped by your love
On another galaxy
That we create
Lets call it...
Loveon